desperation

sometimes there’s just this desperation within you that is greater than your fears. and hopefully along with it comes a passion that’s bigger than your inhibitions and if things go well, along with it is also a fire that melts away all the bad stuff.
this feeling comes in short spurts at time to me but i wish it’d stay longer.then maybe i’d feel more compelled to do things that i’ve stopped doing, to feel things i’ve stopped feeling and to discipline myself to follow through these great big plans i have in my head. it’s scary to feel it but i need to, right now. now.