breakthrough

I can't believe i went to school just to tap my card for attendance for CBO and went home after that. spent less than an hour in school. and instead of mugging at home, i went to see the doctor to seek some advice and after that a 2hr walk and talk. not a bad thing i should say 'cos i've already made up my mind. sad to say, i had to exchange the good advices for a jab on my left arm. actually my hepatitis B immunization is due. and so...
i saw the needle slowly being injected and hey, i just realised that i felt less pain looking at the fine thin needle than looking away and pretending nothing's happening.

actually i've overcomed the phobia of needles/injections just today. you might think i'm nuts to be afraid of an ant bite but a few years back, a nurse who everyone claims is specialized in doing blood test, performed one on me. due to my super fine veins, my main doctor couldn't do it thus sending me to that specialized nurse 5 stories above the lobby. she drawed blood from my left arm, but failed. smiliarly for the right. and once more for the left, then the right. that was a total freak-out incident for me. its a total of 4 times she POKED me with that not-so-fine needle. honestly, it was tough drawing blood from my veins, so when the blood was seen in the syringe, i was kinda relieved. but horror struck when i saw the reverse - the blood gt sucked back. actually during the 4 times she tried, there was this reverse, just that no blood was seen. i think the nurse got quite scared that i might sue her or something, so she decided to use the "baby" method - butterfly, whereby the needle in injected at the back of my palm and she'd pump the blood just like the sphignomanometer. well, she'd have saved so much time and horror if she had done the butterfly method at the very beginning.
so yes, the breakthrough after 6 years and i'm feeling free at last.